CRE8TIVE MOJO FELL IN LOVE (PART II)

I can't believe I had to write this at 2:52 am....but I just had to write this. So what did I actually learn from my recent heart break?

it is important to take advice on love from people that you randomly meet at a bar. This might sound really crazy, but it is true. The best advice I ever got on love was at a bar one night when I was with HIM. It was packed. there happend to be a married couple and two other married people there at the bar. It was at the beginning of it all so I was still figuring things out. Let's just say, I didn't know what the fuck was going on with me. HE was flirting with other girls as I got increasly drunk and jealous throughout the night.

I left him alone, because we technically friends and I had to chill out. Then, his friends told me they were going to walk to the other bar where another live band was playing. I went to the bar to grab another drink and started to talk to the married couple and their married friends. They asked me what was going on. I told them that I am getting drunk tonight because I think I am in love with that guy who keeps flirting with those two girls over there. They laughed and told me to not stress. So I went up to him while he was talked to the girls and told him that I wanted to head out to the other bar, hoping he would leave the chics Of course, he didn't and I just went back to the bar for another drink to chat with the married crew. Once the chics went outside for a cig, I went up to him again to see if he was going to head out. He told me he was going to walk with the chics to the bar. I laughed and said oK see you later.

At that point, I took my third drink, which was over my 2 drink limit.I was really tipsy. Now, thankfully, I have a higher tolerance for alcohol,So, I was sad, and walked back to the married crew as they saw him leave with the chics. They asked me what I was going to do? I told them that I was going to Uber it home then, basically cry and evenually let this go. Then, the married women from the couple asked me, "But, does he know that you are in love with him?" I said, "No, I don't think so, but whatever, this would probably be the last time I am going to see him." Then, she said, "No, you need to tell him that you are in love with him and everything you need to say"

Let's just say, everyone seemed drunk at that point. So they marched me to the next bar. I was holding hands with the married women, as the others walked behind me.As we approached the bar, she said, "Good Luck! Just do it!" while giving a goodbye hug and a kiss. I thanked them and marched into the bar with a vengence. I was going to just tell him I was in love with him and THEN uber it home.

I basically saw him at the bar. He told me it didn't work out with the chics, thankfully. I kind of ran after him for a few. When I realized he was walking away I said I was going to UBER it . Then He offered to give me a ride home. During the ride home, I kept thinking I had to tell him what I felt.

As the car pulled up to my apt, I tried to hit on him, he basically told me the same thing he always said, "The next women

will be his wife and I am not his wife.". I broke down and finally told him. "I am in love with you. I am not the same person after I met you. You changed me. I told you things not many people know. I am in love with you." Tears rolled down my cheek. I was drunk as fuck. Yet, I don't regret a single word I said that night. It was the most liberating feeling I ever felt. I wished I saw the married women again just to tell her that her advice freed me that night, She was right, he needed to know. Sometimes we forget that we are still worth it. BY it, I mean LOVE.

It hurts like fucking HELLLL but it's soo fucking worth it.