CRE8TIVE MOJO MISSES THE MUNCHKIN

I love this Munchkin. Honestly, seeing her first two teeth, crawling and just growing. I was happy my cousin who I never really got along with, and I actually had something in common, THE MUNCHKIN. She's her mom and I basically fell for her.

The first time we hanged out. She made a huge dump and I freaked out. I never changed a Diaper in forever. I went into shear panick! lol So funny now that I think about it. I miss her so much, but due to a falling out with her mom, I don't know when I will see her again. It was partly my fault, I just couldn't handle the BS of family members having an opinion about my life. Let just say, they were never really around, and I never really knew how it would be like to have them in my life. My heart was essentially closed off to them until Munchkin came along. I had no choice but to go BACK THERE and TRY IT AGAIN. They say babies can open your heart, lets just say my heart was wide open. For someone like me, the feeling is rare.

The munchkin just stare deep into your eyes and smiles with her cute dimples. I just miss that so much. I use to get her to crawl.. I would take something she liked and put it far from her. The munchkin would go after it with sheer determination, and I just love her. I AM DEF NOT READY TO BE A MOM! Yet, something about having Munchkin in my life, made me feel hopeful. One day, I might have a mini-munchkin of my own.

I ignored the MUNCHKIN last time at a party, It truly broke my heart cause of a stupid family fight. I don't think my cousins really understand how much they have hurt me in the past, and how even a strong person like me, has her limits. It get exhausting really to keep reaching out, trying and getting your heart broken.

xo

Cre8tive Mojo