CRE8TIVE MOJO FELL IN LOVE (PART III)

Lession #2 in love----Always love yourself FIRST. People tell you this all the time, but it really never makes sense until you encounter a situation that makes you realize this ancient lesson to love yourself first. So, here is another story of how I learned this lesson.

Before meeting HIM, I had not been in love since my last relationship ended which was 2011, 5 years ago. I remember meeting guys, and just being single. I was in midst of building a business and healing my wounds of my last heart break. I didn't know when would be the next time I would say "I Love You" again. The heart break ran so deep from having failed at one real relationship and one long enduring non-relationship, along with a lot of other issues which make me check into therapy.

two and an half years into therapy, I gotten myself over it. My exes were not revolving in and out of my life, and I had felt like I healed enough to move on. I was no longer living on the Futton in my business, and had my own apt, my business has grown. I felt like I finally Loved myself.

Then, HE came along and tested everything I learned from Therapy in 5 months. Did I really love myself? Do I really love him? Was I just reliving something cause I haven't learned my lesson? My therapist wasn't a fan on HIM, but something made me say "I am in love with you" after 5 years and I needed to figure out what it was.

Relationships really make you really LOVE yourself. IF the person you love doesn't love you, there might be some more work to do on yourself. I realized that he brought back unresolved issued I had with my dad. I felt like he was THERE for me but not like I wanted HIM to be. He wanted tot be friends and I wanted more. That discrepancy some how triggered so many past memories, I was trying to resolve as I was with him.

He used to escape reality, and somehow I wanted to escape with him too. It seemed like a great way to live in an ulterior universe where nothing really made sense and all you had was the moment. Then, the sun would come up. I would leave back into my life and somehow that would be enough for me to fall in love. I know now what barriers I have when it comes to love. That is more important.

So take that time to LOVE YOURSELF

xo

Cre8tive Mojo