CRE8TIVE MOJO FELL IN LOVE (PART IV)

I really didn't think there would be a part 4, but there is. Recently, I saw HIM. It was awkward. I wore my crazy glasses, chilled out cloths and decided to attend a live band show at a bar. I had a feeling he might be there. I was hoping I could speak to him and just be cool. I missed HIM, really. Let's just say, I was ready to see him again.

I thought, I am over this, so it would be OK for me. No, I wasn't over it FULLY. The first person I see when I arrived was him outside. It was like he knew my Uber was pulling up. He gave me a hug and that's when I got pissed off. I don't know why I got so pissed. It was like wow I missed you so much, you couldn't even call me or text me. Like, what if I didn't even come today. Did I even matter to you?

The whole night I was far away from him, because I just knew I was looking for one thing: Validation. Really, I didn't realize I came there for validation. After him, I can never be the same person again. Meaningless sex, casual relationships and emotionless encounters aren't for me anymore. I knew what more looked like, and that changed everything for me.

I saw this blonde hair girl inching near him, while he was busting his usual moves, and it basically it killed me. There I was being replaced, right in front of my eyes. I kept flirting with other guys, but my eyes kept going to him. I decided to leave early. I told everyone bye. He was the last one I said bye too, because I really don't know when I am going to see him again.

OK, so lesson 4 in love: You are not over him, until you stop seeking him out in a crowd. Also, you will never know what you really meant to that person.. It's this mysterious question, that we can not ever get the answer to.. I would say it's more of a rhetorical question that keeps you in the past.

XO CRE8TIVE MOJO