CRE8TIVE MOJO GOES BACK TO GYMING IT

It' was my third day at the gym. The lady who works tthere who has become my friend challedged me to go everyday. The first day back was the hardest. I can physically see how much I need to lose and the long journey ahead of me that I have failed at before SEEMS crazy.

I have issues that I need to resolve by myself. I feel the gym might be able to GET ME in a way no body has so far. I read somewhere that the GYM can never dump you or leave you for someone hotter. It seems like a place that is THERE for you. At this point in my life, I just need something THERE. I feel now EVEN I can't get me sometimes.

The last couple days I have been reflecting on my life. What did it all mean? I started reading the book, "The Alchemist." while at the gym. It is actually very interesting. I also starting reading this ridiculous book that advises women in their 30's to settle in love. As I was reading it, I felt like burning it on fire. It reminded me of all the desperate things I have done in the past for LOVE. It makes me laugh now.

At this point in my life, I just want to let things happen. It's actually a very hard concept for me. My whole life I have been overly involved in making things happen, that learning the effortlessness of allowing things to happen is completely unheard of. I think our insecurities are what get the best of us..

Our insecurities get a hold of us and make us believe lies. It's that loud voice in your ear telling you to give up, or fuck up, or get messed up. It is so much easier to believe your insecurites. I don't know why. Anyways, I am tired of letting my insecurities get the best of me.

XO

Cre8tive Mojo